My giants seem big. The list of things I need to accomplish before I go to Kenya stand in a mountain in front of me. I don't know what I'm doing with my job. I don't know who I'm renting my house too. I still have a ton of packing to finish. I wonder to myself, if I should have thought this through better. Maybe it' s too hard after all. 2 weeks before I go to Bolivia and Kenya, I still have so much to work out, and I don't feel ready, prepared, or excited- just daunted, overwhelmed, and scared.
Although I remind myself of my to-do list daily, God hasn't failed to remind me of His promises each day.
Just yesterday, the song "He's always been faithful" started playing from my computer.
"All I have needed, His hand will provide. He's always been faithful to me."
And I have to remember, that my Father in heaven has never failed me one time. In every season of my life, where I've needed Him, He's always provided. He's always loved me. He's always protected me.
So friends, this will not change. Whether I'm in the states at a hospital or overseas in the savannah, whether I'm in a church praising God or a prison swearing, whether I'm on top of the mountain or drowning in an ocean of doubt-- He's still going to be faithful. So what do we have to fear?
You see, I could list you reasons why I should NOT go be a missionary. Why I'm not prepared, not qualified, not ready, not spiritual enough, not kind enough.. I could tell you the long list of the things I'm afraid of: snakes, wild animals, lice, worms, starvation, going alone.
But no matter what my obstacles, no matter what my fears "Our Father has a thousand ways to provide for me that I know nothing about." Joshua 1:9 commands us to Be strong and courageous. Not afraid, not discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.
God promises that when we trust Him-- when we go on adventures with Him, He will take care of us. He promises that He can use our weaknesses, to demonstrate His strengths. He promises that He can take away our fears, and give us a deeper peace that comes from trusting Him as our protector.
I don't know what you are afraid of. I don't know what God is asking you to do. Maybe like me, God is calling you to take a leap of faith and go on the next step in your faith journey, or a change in your career journey. And maybe that's terrifying. Maybe people don't understand.
But while it may be scary to follow God taking that next step- it may be uncertain. I think we have to most be afraid of not following God to where He calls. What if we became complacent? What if stopped trusting Him? What if we stopped listening? That would be the worst situation.. for we would miss out on the peace and joy of having a relationship with our Father.
And when we think of what Jesus has done for us in our lives, how he's saved us, how he's lead us in the past, how he's blessed us. How could we not trust Him with the next step in our lives, with our next adventure?
Jesus is always faithful, friends. I know He is for me. And I know He will be to you too, if you trust Him. So let's surrender our lives to Him. Let's give Him our dreams, our fears, our hearts again today. I don't know about you- but I want to trust Him more to continue to be faithful in my life.